Teenage Angst

Life is crap.

1. Was failing Calc BC, not failing anymore but still basically am.

2. My mom threatened to take away the car

3.Still haven't gotten an acceptance letter

I am a terrible person, Mr. AHHCHOO. I know I texted you that about 15 minutes ago...but like when people ask me what your interests are or I'm trying to think of what to get you for Christmas or your birthday...I come up pretty blank.

Of course I could always say that your interests include wrestling, longboarding, and me...but what else?

I should know things like this. It makes me think of the days when we first started talking.

What the hell did we even talk about?

I feel like we don't even have much in common...all I know is that somehow I love you a lot.

I know we've been getting into a lot of fights lately and I think we've been taking each other for granted. We've just been pushing things onto each other without any consideration for each other's feelings. Due to ...recent events, I really don't want this to end at all. As naive, idiotic, and cliche as this sounds, I wanna be with you for the rest of my life. I told you once that when I pictured my life in 10 years, my goal was to be rich and successful, not married to AHHCHOO. But you're a huge part of my life now, in fact my world revolves around you. I was talking to Mr. Sven earlier tonight and about how our text messages would go something like this: AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO MS. COW AHHCHOO AHHCHOO MR. JONAS AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO MR. SVEN AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO. Without you, I'm pretty sure my world would collapse. This is dumb but the only book example I can think of right now is in New Moon when Edward left Bella...

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I hope this doesn't make you upset even though I'm really upset with myself and we SHOULD go back to the olden days of our long messages...once you get a new computer. That's password protected. From the JOYCHOO.

I need to know you. On a subatomic level. I want to be a AHHCHOO expert.

oh by the way. We made it past the 500 day pact ;D

and sorry I'm a jerk about your braces. you know i'm no good with my words and feelings so consider it my way of being sad about you having them in college. but like i said SUPERHOT when its over :/

and sorry I'm a jerk in general.

Hug it out? oh wait. this was a pretty one-sided conversation...

Lyrics of the Day

"If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea

I'll sail the world to find you

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Every day I will remind you

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go
Never say goodbye"

-Bruno Mars, Count on Me

The Drive-Reduction Theory

drive reduction theory- the idea that a physiological need creates an aroused tension state (a drive) that motivates an organism to satisfy the need.

what is the best way to calm down my drive?

If it is consuming me subconsciously, then it can be fulfilled consciously.

UGH. yousuck.

Lyrics of the Day:

So if it's just tonight
The animal inside, let it live then die
Like it's the end of time
Like everything inside
Let it live then die

-Kesha, Animal

so close.

soooooo last night was really good :)

two whole hours...phew

lets try it again sometime, but next time don't give your naughties away and it might be better :)

Lyrics of the day

"Lets go all the way tonight.

No regrets, just love.

You make me feel like i'm livin a Teenage dream

the way you turn me on. I can't sleep

lets run away and don't ever look back, don't ever look back

My heart stops when you look at me

Just one touch, now baby I believe

This is real"

-Katy Perry, Teenage Dream

zomg

Its been three days and I still can't believe this shit.

Lyrics of the day:

Woohha-a-ohooh
You got a secret
Woohha-a-ohooh
You couldn't keep it
Woohha-a-ohooh
Somebody leaked it,
And now some shits about to go down

-Ke$ha, Kiss n Tell

MOWHAWKKK

Do it.

Shave your head into a mowhawk.

if you don't then...Puck you.

Lyrics

"Where it began, I can't begin to knowing But then I know it's growing strong Was in the spring, And spring became the summer Who'd believe you'd come along

Hands, touching hands, reaching out Touching me, touching you Oh, sweet Caroline Good times never seem so good I've been inclined to believe it never would

Oh, sweet Caroline Good times never seem so good I've been inclined to believe it never would oooh oh no no.. "

-Puck from The Glee Cast, Sweet Caroline.

booyts

I really want some cowboy boots

And the ginormous cuffed boots that Jack Sparrow wears

Lyrics

"Boots and boys (boots and boys)

They bring me so much joy (bring me joy)"

-KE$SHA, Boots and Boys

D'AWWWWWWWWWW

5th = You. I learned you don't have to constantly be or talk to someone to feel loved. You don't constantly need their attention or give them your attention because if you really love someone and believe they love you, you should just know. That intimacy is nice, but it can wait. If its the right person, it'll happen sooner or later even though its hard to wait. That you have to make sacrifices for other people. That I'm no longer making decisions that only affect me. That God and Jesus love me more than anyone else can. That I have to stay faithful. That little things mean more than big things. I'm pretty sure I learned more in my 5th relationship, than my first 4. So hopefully you don't think fifth is so bad anymore.

Lyrics of the Day

"I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way"

-Jason Mraz&Colbie Caillat, Lucky