Too much

Do you even notice?

You're addicted.

Lyrics of the Day:

Bucket full of tears

babe you know Im here

Im here waiting

Close your precious eyes

and just realize

Im still fighting

For you to be with me

and sit under this tree

and we can watch the sunrise,

we can watch the sunrise

Wake up feel the air that Im breathin

I cant explain this feeling that Im feelin

I wont go another day without you

I know it feels

like no ones around

but baby you’re wrong

Just get rid of the fear

promise that Im here

I’ll never be gone

So baby come with me

we can fly away and we can watch the

stars shine

And baby you can be my love

Oh

Wake up feel the air that Im breathin

I cant explain this feeling that Im feelin

I wont go another day without you

Without you

Hold on I promise its gets brighter

and when it rains I’ll hold you even tighter

I won’t go another day without you

Without you

This is me tonight

no more games and no more lies

and I know its right

cause of the way you look into my eyes

and when I hold you tight

the worries disappear Im glad you’re in my life

Wake up feel the air that Im breathin

I cant explain this feeling that Im feelin

I wont go another day without you

Hold on I promise its gets brighter

and when it rains I’ll hold you even tighter

I won’t go another day without you

Without you

And I won’t go another day,

Without you

AJ Rafael: Without You

Teenage Angst

Life is crap.

1. Was failing Calc BC, not failing anymore but still basically am.

2. My mom threatened to take away the car

3.Still haven't gotten an acceptance letter

I am a terrible person, Mr. AHHCHOO. I know I texted you that about 15 minutes ago...but like when people ask me what your interests are or I'm trying to think of what to get you for Christmas or your birthday...I come up pretty blank.

Of course I could always say that your interests include wrestling, longboarding, and me...but what else?

I should know things like this. It makes me think of the days when we first started talking.

What the hell did we even talk about?

I feel like we don't even have much in common...all I know is that somehow I love you a lot.

I know we've been getting into a lot of fights lately and I think we've been taking each other for granted. We've just been pushing things onto each other without any consideration for each other's feelings. Due to ...recent events, I really don't want this to end at all. As naive, idiotic, and cliche as this sounds, I wanna be with you for the rest of my life. I told you once that when I pictured my life in 10 years, my goal was to be rich and successful, not married to AHHCHOO. But you're a huge part of my life now, in fact my world revolves around you. I was talking to Mr. Sven earlier tonight and about how our text messages would go something like this: AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO MS. COW AHHCHOO AHHCHOO MR. JONAS AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO MR. SVEN AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO AHHCHOO. Without you, I'm pretty sure my world would collapse. This is dumb but the only book example I can think of right now is in New Moon when Edward left Bella...

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I hope this doesn't make you upset even though I'm really upset with myself and we SHOULD go back to the olden days of our long messages...once you get a new computer. That's password protected. From the JOYCHOO.

I need to know you. On a subatomic level. I want to be a AHHCHOO expert.

oh by the way. We made it past the 500 day pact ;D

and sorry I'm a jerk about your braces. you know i'm no good with my words and feelings so consider it my way of being sad about you having them in college. but like i said SUPERHOT when its over :/

and sorry I'm a jerk in general.

Hug it out? oh wait. this was a pretty one-sided conversation...

Lyrics of the Day

"If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea

I'll sail the world to find you

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Every day I will remind you

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go
Never say goodbye"

-Bruno Mars, Count on Me

FRUSTRATION

THIS WEEKEND WAS TERRIBLE.

1. I was sick
2. My mother made me stay home all weekend
3. I wasn't allowed to go the the NCSSM party
4. I wasn't allowed to go to the State Fair
5. I got an unexcused absence at work
6. I didn't get to spend a whopping 24 hours with Mr. AHHCHOO
7. H1 made me go to the library with her for 4 hours..
8. ...while everybody else was at the fair
9. H1 made me pay for her dinner
10. I had to go to work on Sunday
11. My dad took my car on Monday...okay that's past the weekend

I realized something this weekend.

I write really well in frustration.

I finished my Carolina essays.

Lyrics of the Day

"It's all your fault...It's not fair"

P!nk-All Your Fault