Double Feature

Welp. that makes for the second night in a row that I've cried myself to sleep.
I wonder how long my streak will last.

Song of my current mood:
When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye,
Not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any sins,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know

...

Gave you the space so you could breath,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hoped that you'd find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me
-Adele, Don't You Remember

Adele knows what's up

                                                                      "Take It All"

Didn't I give it all,
Tried my best,
Gave you everything I had,
Everything and no less?
Didn't I do it right?
Did I let you down?

Maybe you got too used to
Well, having me around.
Still how can you walk away
From all my tears?
It's gonna be an empty road
Without me right here.

[Chorus:]
But go on and take it,
Take it all with you.
Don't look back
At this crumbling fool.
Just take it all
With my love,
Take it all
With my love.

Maybe I should leave
To help you see
Nothing is better than this
And this is everything we need.
So is it over?
Is this really it?
You've given up so easily,
I thought you loved me more than this.

[Chorus:]
But go on, go on and take it,
Take it all with you.
Don't look back
At this crumbling fool.
Just take it all
With my love,
Take it all
With my love.

I will change if I must.
Slow it down and bring it home, I will adjust.
Oh if only, if only you knew,
Everything I do is for you.

[Chorus:]
But go on
Go on and take it,
Take it all with you.
Don't look back
At this crumbling fool.
Just take it,
Take it all with you.
Don't look back
At this crumbling fool.
Just take it all
With my love,
Take it all
With my love
Take it all
With my love.

Ew

The worst feeling in the world is probably waking up in the morning after crying yourself to sleep.
The puffy eyes -____-

Dat Meltdown

It's funny how when I want to talk about something that's been bugging me, I ask if we can have a serious talk.

When you wanna talk about something that's been bugging you..oh wait you don't wanna talk.  You just flip out and break up with me.

huh.

So I guess neither of us knows how to change.

Mute

I wonder why you think silence means that I don't respect you.
Besides the times that I am doing something and you ask me a question and I don't respond.
And don't lie. you do that too.

I'm talking about the times when you ask me something and I don't answer or acknowledge because I am THINKING.

Did you ever think that its because I am so afraid of what you might think of my answer that I just don't say anything?

And another thing.  Apparently, my dear roommate worries about the same things you do.  Mr. Guitarist and I had quite an interesting heart to heart after you left.  We agreed.  Just cause you're doing things, doesn't mean you're doing things.
You rag on me that "i don't have a plan in life"
I know my options.  I can go to graduate school, get my degree and I can teach and do research.  Or I can go into public history.  Public history has a huge range of things I could do.
You seriously think I'm only passionate about something because I took one class? You seriously think its because of one class?  Remember how I took Latin all through high school?  Remember how it was my favorite class?  Remember how I won an award?  And did you ever realize how much I loved mythology?  Remember when I taught it to you that one time?  And you weren't even paying attention to me.  All you cared about was your penis.
I know my options.

Don't try to belittle me, saying that the highlight of my life is working at a frozen yogurt place.  First off, its a part-time job.  Secondly, I don't mind working there, the people are  nice and I like it.  Third, calm your tits.

And what about you?  You said this just the other night.  You're only planning on doing collegeworks this year.  I asked what you want to do after that. You said "I dunno...real estate I guess"
OHMIGOSH it looks like you have as much planned as I do.  look at that.

Quit acting like you have everything planned out.  You can't plan for life.

And yeah I know you're going to have some amazing stupid argument to shut me down later.
Cause that's what you do. You shut me down.